Just... A Blog.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

This is for the kids who's right now feeling down with their SPM result.

Bismillahirahmanirrahim...

So, how was today for you guys? Exciting? Awesome? Or vice versa? Before I start my rant, I would like to congratulate those who aced the SPM. Congratulations guys! You deserved those A's!!!

Now, back to the main point of this blog post.
To those of you that didnt score, here's my two cents for you guys. I hope it will benefit you guys in some ways, Insya Allah. Amiin.

I know how it felt like, not getting all those 9A's for all 9 subjects that I took. I know how disappointed it felt, not scoring the most important exam for 11 years of schooling. I know. Trust me I know all of that feeling. My result was neither very bad nor very good. It was average. But considering I was a student from a boarding school, it was a bit disappointing. Ya lah. Malaysians have this kind of thoughts yang budak asrama penuh WAJIB dapat straight A's!!!!! Budak asrama penuh budak pandai gila tahap Einstein. So yeah, kalau kau budak asrama penuh or mrsm or sekolah elit, the pressure is 10x harder because you have to live up to the expectations of people around you. So just imagine mannn. Dgn result I yg average tu... And lagi 'best' bila my gang, 3 out of 12 dapat straight A's, my best best best friend forever dapat straight A's, my friend yg sekolah harian dapat straight A's with God knows how many A+ she got but berderet laaahhh haih. So yeah...

But you know what? I didnt cry at all, the day of the results tu. Not a single tears. Instead, what I felt was, calm. Tenang sangat. HAHA. Pelik kan? I didnt get straight but I didnt feel anything other than the feeling of calmness. Frustration tu adalah sikit but I got over it. So why? Kenapa Adina boleh tak nangis tak kecewa tak meratap and all??? KENAPA KENAPA????

Because, nights before, bila hari result makin dekat, I solat every night, asking for strength and serenity. Whatever my result is, I asked Him that I will be given enough strength to say Alhamdulillah and feel peace. And Alhamdulillah, He granted me that. Bila I tengok my slip, I rasa bersyukur. Bersyukur yang tak tahu nak cakap mcm mana. Bersyukur sebab dalam slip result I, ada a few A's yang I boleh banggakan dgn diri sendiri. Despite being hamba yang lalai dalam mengingati Allah, He was kind enough to grant me a few A's for my SPM. Ya Allah, bersyukurnya!

What I'm trying to say is that, whatever your result is, BERSYUKUR. Syukur. Say Alhamdulillah. Because, ITU REZEKI KAMU. That is what Allah has written for you. Yeah you can be sad and disappointed but dont go beyond that. Dont dwell and say 'Aku bodoh' 'I'm not good enough' yada yada yada... Syukur, sayang. Sebab apabila kita bersyukur, kita redha dgn apa yg Allah dah takdirkan untuk kita. And bila kita redha, kita rasa tenang. And bila kita bersyukur, Allah akan tambah nikmat dalam hidup kita. Maybe, kita tak berjaya sekarang sebab Allah, Dia tengah simpan something bigger than this. A victory that is much better than getting straight A's in SPM. Who knows? Kita tak tau. Kita hamba, our knowledge are limited. But Allah is Al-'Alim, sayang. He definitely knows what He is doing. He loves his servants so much. Why would He want to destroy you? As much as your mother wants the best for you, He wants the BEST for you too. Maka, jangan sedih ya? Pegang satu benda ni,

Semua yang terjadi, ada hikmah. Everything is a blessing. Either it's obvious or in disguise. You'll find out when Allah lets you do so. Okay?

Sudah. Jangan nangis lagi. Jangan fikir dah that you're not good enough. We all existed because Allah wants us to exist. Isnt that a blessing? Allah gave us air to breathe. Isnt that a blessing? Allah permits our body to function well and perfect. Isnt that a blessing?

'Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang mana yang engkau dustakan?'
(Ar-Rahman)

Life is a bliss. And to really feel how blissful life is, be grateful with every little things, little ni'mat that Allah gave you instead of dwelling on some bigger things.

Rezeki tu dah tertulis.
We only have to believe Him :)
Insya Allah, He will reward you when time comes.

That's all for me. Hope that my humble thoughts will somehow those sadness in your mind and heart, insya Allah.


Salam sayang,
Dins.

(p/s: kalau tak tenang juga, buka Allah's love letter. Insya Allah, you'll fin ultimate peace)