Short. But SINCERE.

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Assalamualaikum w.b.t


Sungguh rasa macam kena ignore hardcore level. Rasa invisible. Rasa forgotten. Rasa macam, EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED. Like totally. 360 degree. Changed. Yeah everything.

Memang jadi macam ni ke? Sebab nampaknya mcm bkn aku je yg mengalami. Yaya pun sama. Yaya selalu story kat aku. Hahaha. Yaya, kita senasib. Sabar je la, kan? Nak buat macam mana.

Okay. Gambar2 semua dah selamat di delete from recycle bin. Permanently deleted. Lagu2 that reminds me of us, dah delete from mp3. Texts? Ada a few lagi and will delete it later. Notes? Dah mintak Kak Nor simpan dalam satu kotak and IDK Kak Nor simpan kat mana and guess what, me tak ingin pun tau. Baju2 tu, hmm, entah. Ada dalam almari kat rumah. Biar semua ni jauh dari pandangan and one day, hilang dalam ingatan.

Maybe you'll think that I acted immaturely. But who cares? Do you? Well I'm surprised if you do.

The thing is, I'm tired of all this. IDK why this happens. Hahaha. I felt like an IDIOT. Waiting for you everyday. Waiting for a single 'Hi' or 'How are you?'. Macam la patah tangan nak text mcm tu. Hahaha. Hmm biarlah. Buat apala bazir credit untuk saya. Siapalah saya kan? No one. I'm no one to you. I'm just someone who you used to know. Who you used to be closed with. Not now. We've changed. We are not the old us. Kan? Hmm biarlah. Nak buat macam mana kan.

Yes. I'm giving up. I wanna put a fullstop to this whole thingy. Because I'm just extremely tired and agitated. Dah taknak hidup dalam kenangan. Sakit hati, sakit jiwa. Sungguh. Awak buat saya sakit jiwa, tahu? Wait why did I tell you this? You don't even care.

And pasal birthday, I'm truly sorry bout' that too. Saya tau awak terasa hati. Ada someone told me. Memang sengaja. Sengaja nak bagi awak rasa how hurt it felt to be ignored. Sorry I choose the day to be on your birthday.

So, last word. I have a few songs that might suits the situation we're facing now.
Luke Bryan - Kiss Tomorrow Goodbye and Robyn - With Every Heartbeat.

p/s: Sorry if this post really hurt you. It's just that, I can't keep it all to myself now. I've been keeping everything inside for tooo tooo tooo long. I've been trying nak jaga hati awak but there's no use of doing that because in return, i got hurt. I hope you do feel what I'm feeling now. And if you wanna hate me or what, yeah it's up to you. The real me who I kept so deep inside since the past 2 years, has finally show up. K Assalamualaikum.